Anybody out there?

Right, things are drawing to a close!

I’ve constantly got the new album on my mind. and most of the time I worry, even if it’s just a small, nagging feeling in the back of my mind.

I often feel like Moses, debating with God when He was calling him to lead God’s people out of Egypt. He kept coming up with reasons why God should use someone else to do the mission, but God insisted that Moses was the man for the job. In the end God agreed to call Aaron as his helper, to do the things Moses felt uncapable to do.

I do believe that God will help us finish this project, but as always, trusting is the hard part. When we, as humans, like to prepare and feel like we are in control of things, there is little room for surrendering all to a higher power and trusting that everything will be all right even though we can’t see the way right now.

One thing that I have realised though, about letting God help us, is that a lot of the time it means also trusting other people to help you. He might send someone your way, that can help you finish what has been started. Like he provided a spokesman for Moses, where Moses felt inadequate in that area.

He gives us strength to do things we didn’t think we could accomplish. But He also calls us to be interactive with other people. We are not meant to go it alone!

And I struggle with this sometimes. Maybe it’s a cultural thing. Where we think that asking for help, means we are somehow disabled to do things and lesser of an independent and capable person.

But the truth is, we are made to be good at different things. And God has forced me to reach out, and he is still doing it. And if you feel like you’re not completely capable to do something on your own, you’re probably right! no one can do everything by themselves! if we did, we would not need anyone!

I suppose real interaction is needed more than ever in today’s society, where we can know so much about a person through their facebook status and send a text message or post on their wall if we feel uncomfortable speaking on the phone or meeting with them face to face.

I have always been a bit nervous about talking to people on the phone. The facebook and text message culture makes me feel comfortable, because I don’t have to look smart or sound clever when I communicate with someone. And it’s so much nicer to be able to think about how to express oneself before one presses send.

But we were not created to sit in front of screens, not seeing or hearing other people when we communicate with them. We need each other and we need to see each other. So many things get lost in the process when we can’t see someones facial expressions and body language when we talk with them. Misunderstandings happen easily, and somewhere along the way honesty (and dishonesty) becomes less obvious.

So, don’t be quiet. Let yourself be challenged to be interactive, in real life!

Be encourageing, be honest, dare to show yourself! Trade in the smiley faces and emoticons for real expressions and presence.

I don’t think any smiley icon can express the true joy in someones face when they feel noticed, cared for and loved.

don’t be a fictional person. be real.

I will try to do it. I want to do it! I pray to God that He will make me brave enough. But sometimes we just need a little kick in the backside to get us up and going.

I have no idea if anyone is reading this. but if you are and you feel brave enough, write a comment to show you’re there. Or if you know me,  make contact in some other, more real, way. It might seem a bit uncomfortable at first, but maybe we will get used to it again.

after all, I did spend the first fifteen years or so, of my life, without any text messaging or facebook. I used to call people on the landline to arrange meeting up. And I used to write letters and post cards when people were too far away to reach in person.

even a handwritten letter feels more real than a text message.

I’m pretty sure this won’t start any major trend of avoiding facebook and smiley faces, and that’s not my point either.

I guess I just got carried away with my thoughts.

the basic idea: we need each other. I need you. I need to know that there still is someone out there who cares if I finish this album or not, who will be sad if I don’t and happy if I do. I know I will be, and my husband, and the people I have spoken to about this. And I’ve had maybe two or three comments from people who say they look forward to the new album. Thank you to those who feel they have contributed to that! Every single encouragement counts!

I’m still very nervous about calling people fans. it feels very unfinnish of me. :) but it would be nice to know if there is anyone out there who cares.

it’s not about counting fans or making me feel proud. it’s about encouragement, and showing support. I would rather call you a supporter than a fan. because that’s what I need. support. I don’t want to be adored or idolised. But I want to be someone who’s work is appreciated, just like everybody else.

Anyway. I hope this post doesn’t make me come off as selfish or arrogant. That’s really not my aim! I just wanted to be honest. again.

I hope I didn’t scare anyone off! If you don’t care about the finishing of this album, don’t worry about commenting. :) everyone is free to feel how they want about the whole thing. I’m just reaching out.

My main point is really that I am insufficient in myself, for finishing a project like this. It would not be accomplished without the help of so many others! If it was just about me, I would have failed a long time ago!

here is a passage from the bible which demonstrates how we need each other, not in spite of, but because of our differences.
In 1 Corinthians chapter 12, verses 15-21 Paul talks about the church as a body with many different parts…

 

15 Now if the foot should say, “Because I am not a hand, I do not belong to the body,” it would not for that reason stop being part of the body. 16 And if the ear should say, “Because I am not an eye, I do not belong to the body,” it would not for that reason stop being part of the body. 17 If the whole body were an eye, where would the sense of hearing be? If the whole body were an ear, where would the sense of smell be? 18 But in fact God has placed the parts in the body, every one of them, just as he wanted them to be. 19 If they were all one part, where would the body be? 20 As it is, there are many parts, but one body.

21 The eye cannot say to the hand, “I don’t need you!” And the head cannot say to the feet, “I don’t need you!”

 

We need each other.

and now I need to finish this post. :)

Be blessed. Bless each other. And don’t feel inadequate just because you can not do everything. Someone else can do it for you, and someone else is good at it and might even enjoy it!

don’t be discouraged!

And I don’t feel discouraged anymore after writing this.

good night everybody!

m

  1. Al
    I'll be sad if you don't finish it! You're not allowed to not finish!! Your current CD is in my car right now, and I'm looking forward to the next one. And yes, adore and idolise is maybe a but strong, but fan yes. You're great and your music is great! And we do all have different gifts. I'd MUCH rather listen to your music and eat your cakes than listen to or eat anything I'd made. Might even be best to listen to the cake and eat the music if I'd done it! But then I can help people fix things, and I sometimes seem to be good at that. Hope the remaining album related work goes well!
    • Maria
      Thank you, Al! :) it means a lot to read what you think! And please don't eat my music, it's probably not very nutritious or tasty. :)
  2. Jojo
    Maria, don't you dare not finish this album! We need your music and your honesty. You are blessed with this gift even though it might feel like a burden at times, I am sure. You are so right about that we cannot manage everything on our own, and your thoughts are very true. Keep on singing and making music, it is to no one's good if it stays locked up in a drawer somewhere. You are encouraging more people than you know through your music, and I am a glad supporter of your work! Kom ihåg att din skatt finns i ett lerkärl, för att makten skall vara Guds och inte människors. Bräckliga lerkärl behöver varandra, men det är inte alla som finner sin skatt. Du har gjort det, och då lovar Gud att Han fullföljer det han har påbörjat i dig. Välsignelse till dig och paljon tsemppiä! ;) You know who I am, H: Jojo
    • Maria
      Tack, Jojo! :) det värmer!